Is it just me, or does everyone have days where they can be surrounded by people and still feel lonely? I've been having those days a lot. I'm always around my husband and my two kids...and on days when I work, I see different friends. But still, I feel very lonely. {Sad subject, I know.....don't wanna be, but I guess just expressing my thoughts helps...???}
I've figured out that while I do have friends, I don't really have people that I hang out with or get to talk to very much....I don't have those girl friends that I go out with or anything. I'm a wife and a mother and, in my mind, I feel like I have to sacrifice everything else to be with them. ---Don't get me wrong....I adore my husband and I wouldn't trade being his wife for anything.....I can't imagine my life without my children and am so honored God chose me to be their mommy.--- I do wish I had those girls, though, that I could turn to when I just need an hour to away to refresh and catch my breath.
However, the girls my age are either a) not married, b) married without kids, or c) married with kids and have other groups of friends...add in to all of that everyone having work schedules and what not.
I think this all hit me the hardest a few weeks ago. The series at church was called "You+" and the first week focused on "you + friends" and having those friends that know you and understand you...those friends you can turn to for anything....those friends who are there for you and you don't have to even say a word....those friends who you are there for. They help with your spiritual growth...with your emotional health. So many times, I don't really know who to turn to for those things.
I also felt this "lonely feeling" last weekend. I was shopping because my sister sent me a "happy" (as my mother-in-law calls things you send or give to people just because you know it will make them smile) in the mail, so I used what she sent me. And while I was shopping, all I could think of was how much I wanted someone (mainly my sister) with me to just chat with and spend time with. That led to me to missing my brother and sister even more. That in and of itself is a huge, vicious cycle...it seems like every time I get to talk to one or both of them, the amount I miss them gets worse. Or maybe it's just because I haven't seen them since January...and for me, this is the longest I've ever gone without seeing my little brother. Pathetic, I know.......
So, pretty much all I was asking was whether or not those feelings of loneliness even while being surrounded by people were normal.......or is it just me?
